Marvelous

Sat down to do my daily meditation and went back to yesterdays, just for a recap, and something hit me... I must have been really tired to have missed it or I wasn't ready to receive it but, I'm so glad I had the thought to go back.... My devotional sent me to Psalm 1 39:13-14.  When I read the last two lines in 14 something clicked inside me. Marvelous are Your words, And that my soul knows very well. 

It was like a ah ha moment and in that moment I knew it was my soul that received His word. When my heart or head tries to understand what I read before my soul can take it in I have confusion.  For me its an uncomfortable feeling of  "I don't get it".  Tonight I got it , well at least these 2 verses...  Everyday I am learning something new, asking new questions and getting a new understanding.  All the while I am changing I can feel it. More importantly I can see it.. I am so grateful for being "awakened" as the Buddha would say and to being open to receive these wise words...

Transformation

This week I have been reflecting on how my life has transformed over the last 18 years.  Many thoughts and feelings have been running through my mind and heart.  I came across this picture and the brief description of its meaning gives me a feeling of comfort.  I am that "man" only I am a woman who is the seeker.  Each day I look forward to seeing all the beauty this picture represents.  The artists website describes this painting in the following way: At first glance, this painting looks like a decorative artwork.  Unusually bright blossoms in the branches are the center of the composition.. but then, after a while of gazing at the picture, you see that the blossoms are actually butterflies.. The painting evokes a line from Japanese poetry:"I thought, the blossom is back on the branch,...but oh...its only a butterfly." Through these symbols in circular composition, the viewer looks in rounds.  Thus, the profound, secret meaning of the painting is reveled.  The metamorphosis form a slow-growing caterpillar to a beautiful winged butterfly symbolizes the immortality and Transformation of a man's soul on the way to God. In every painting by the artist there is an unseen dialog between man and God.  God is always present in the artists work.  In this particular painting, "The Transformation", it is His hand that is turning over the pages of the Holy Writ.  God reveals the secretes of the Universe through the symbol's, which one should know to understand.  A small figure of man is trying to perceive something unknown and look beyond the borders of the visible world.  In the artists art, the man is always a seeker of truth and God's appearance in everything..”  

WOW Spiritual Growth for this MOM Upside Down

Today I am filled with such gratitude. I have been doing Bible Study using a Woman’s Devotional Bible and I can feel the spirit working within me.  I chose to start out my month focusing on PURPOSE.  Each day there is a Scripture that focuses on PURPOSE with a personal message from different people and then there are corresponding Scriptures that support the Daily Devotional.  Each day prior to reading I ask for my heart and my spirit to be opened so that I may clearly see what my POURPOSE is. 

It’s my PURPOSE beyond what I know it to be today.  There is more in this world for me to be and do.  There is more for me to give to this world.  I know that my greatest gift to the world is the 3 little people that I have been blessed with.  The task of raising them to be spiritual, honest, compassionate, responsible, kind and good human beings is a great honor.  It is defiantly one I do not take lightly. 

Monday Corina turned 18 and she was so sure I would cry.  Honestly I had tears of Joy at who she had become in those 18 years; she is truly an amazing young woman.  My tears were not tears of loss now that she is an adult.  I believe my true tears will be the day that she will go into the world on her own standing on her on feet with her head held high and a degree in her hand.  Giving to the world all the great many things she has been blessed with.   That is a day in which I know tears will flow.  These kids are only mine for a little while and then they are a gift upon the world in which they live. 

I am looking forward to all of the lessons and messages that this new Devotional Bible has in store for me.  It is filling me with love and hope and peace everyday.  It is with love, hope and peace I am finding strength.  Each day I am grateful for being able and willing to receive and follow through with what is in store for me. 

Thank You

A lot has gone on since the last blog post.  I started this blog with the intent to blog regularly and for whatever reasons I have not done so.  I am going to honestly work hard and blogging on a regular basis.  My life is busy and non stop for the most part however as of today I commit to getting real and checking in with myself emotionally and blogging a few times a week.  Everything my life is made up of: the good, the bad and the ugly. 

Today was day 2 of my daily devotional, and in my reading I was reminded that everyone needs people to help them achieve their purpose and to help them achieve the plan that is in store for us.  When I review my life and take inventory of the things in my life that I have gone thru I am faced with the reality that I couldn’t have gotten thru those things without my faith and with out the support of my friends and family. I can say that I know many people and I can also say that only a portion of them are “my friends”.  I am grateful for the people who have been put in my life to teach me the very powerful lesson that I am not meant to go though life alone.  That my gifts and burdens are to be shared with my family and friends and to allow myself to be seen for who I am inside and out.  It has been a hard thing for me to embrace; being as independent as I am leaning on others has always been very difficult for me to do.  I am very grateful to know that I am not meant to carry everything on my own…………………….